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Covid, depression and surrender

I’ve been depressed four times in my life. The first was when I was at the tail end of my first trimester, pregnant with Makia.  The second was recovering from Covid the first time I had it, January 2022. The third time was when I was at the tail end of my first trimester, pregnant […]

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You used to be as tough as nails

“What happened to you? You used to be as tough as nails.”  That’s what Mum said last week when I told her a story about needing Dreamboat’s help.  “I’ve never heard you talk like that.”  That was another observation made by Mum this week when I was describing my Covid symptoms. I was using words […]

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Why am I afraid to breathe

Three weeks ago, I was flat on my back during my weekly Pilates class, trying to breathe into my back.  Pilates has surprised me in many ways since I started in early 2021. It is foundational. In many ways, I liken the practice of Pilates on the body to the practice of mindfulness on the […]

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The best day of my life

Today was the best day of my life!  Actually, no. That’s a lie. Today was a good day, not the best, but pretty damm good. 8/10.  But the reason why today stands out for me is not because good things happened. In fact, many objectively bad things happened.  Nope. Today stands out as a good […]

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Am I okay?

Are you okay?  That’s what the email asked.  A thoughtful question from a concerned soul on my email database. (Thank you, I love that you asked.) When I read it, though, I wobbled. “I don’t know, am I okay?” I thought.  I had my son in my arms. He had just fallen asleep at my […]

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Will you be my friend?

This week has been hard for me. I’ve been sleeping badly; my son William is co-sleeping and waking me up regularly to feed for comfort. There’s also something in the air, full moon energy, perhaps.  A part of me wanted to take my two ‘work’ days and use them to read, sleep, eat chocolate and […]

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Birth trauma – my story

Trigger alert: this article features words and images about birth trauma. The content may be triggering if you have had a traumatic birth experience. Please make sure you have support if you choose to proceed.  This week is birth trauma awareness week. I sat on the fence about writing about something so personal, which is […]

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On inspiring others, dopamine and being gross

I caught up with my good friend Danielle this weekend. Dani and I have a long history that began when she unexpectedly slid into my DMs in 2018 as an Instagrammer who felt some connection to what I shared. She asked me to visit her at the Eco Hostel she was working at in Hvar […]

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Oh universe, you wily trickster

This week something crazy occurred to me. Like, mind-bending, the universe is a trickster, cuckoo-crazy. I want to share it with you. But first, the context part. Last year I shared a very vulnerable story on Instagram. I titled it 2022 and kept it in my highlights reel if you want the full backstory. It […]

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